Because when you’re trying to take on too much in whatever aspect of your life, things can become overwhelming. It could be a personal project or cramming social activities into too many hours of the evening.
For me, I’ve not yet taken on a work project that I thought I wouldn’t be capable of completing or that I wouldn’t have the motivation finish. I am after all in the business that I love. I’ve even turned away some work because I thought I wasn’t the right person for the job.
There are however extra hours that I put into my working day to help keep my skills and knowledge sharp.
I’d been aware for some time of the concept of a blog generator called Jekyll. A couple of weeks ago I took the plunge and had a look for myself. I began to learn a lot about how it worked. How your create a Jekyll project and manage a Jekyll workflow.
And for a little while, I was getting into it. Learning about Jekyll Templates, Front matter blocks, loops etc. I could see myself working on a little project of my own and adding it as a skillset in my portfolio.
But all the while I felt somethimg nagging at me. The inner voice asking when I was going to use this skill in the future. Jekyll isn’t quite a Content Management System but it feels like one. It has a loop system which generates content in a similar way to that seen in WordPress.
It all came to a head today when I realised i was wasting too much time trying to work out a problem on a version of Jekyll that was far in advance of the original learning material. I partially completed the site. I say partially because there were glitches between my version of the project and the intended result.
Problems that probably could have been resolved if I had the time, the energy, the motivation to look at the documentation to fix it. Only I didn’t. Because my heart wasn’t really in the project at all.
So eventually, I shelved it and moved. I said. “No more”. It was my decision and the only person who could be possibly negatively affected by it is me. But I think I made the right one. If I was never truly motived to learn Jekyll then there was no real point in me putting the effort in to fix the glitches in the site.
It gives me time and energy to put on other things. That’s the wisdom I believe im learning to say “no” sometimes in life.